… insanity …

5:15 a.m. Woke up and padded out to the kitchen to get a glass of water … took a peek outside … sun rising over the water … damn, beautiful.

I crawl back into bed. A beautifully sculpted arm slips around my waist and there is sweet breath on my back … but I’m already gone. “I gotta go. The ocean.”

“You’re insane.”

I know, possibly, probably … still, gotta go

5:57 a.m.

Find myself standing on the Cambie Street bridge listening to Theory of a Deadman’s “Make Up Your Mind” (Listen HERE) and looking out over Science World at the sun rising.


The water is calm.

For a second I feel like I could be stronger than I am.

That the water could be warm and inviting …

I picture myself doing a swan dive and breaking through the water.

Gracefully pushing back up through the surface with my face in the sun.

Sad, these human limitations.

I turn around, walk back over the bridge.

Now all I want to do is crawl back into bed. Silly girl.

******************************

The Words to Make up Your Mind:

Make up your mind and I’ll make up mine
Don’t worry about me, I’ll be fine
Those words that you said to me, why wasn’t I listening?
I wish I hadn’t met you at all, I started thinking
I’ll sit back and relax and wait for the morning
We’ll wake up, we’ll make up and do this for the last time
We’ll wake up, we’ll make up and do this for the last time
If we break up, we’ll wind up losing both of our minds
So wake up, let’s make up and do this for the last time
Make up your mind and I’ll make up mine
Don’t worry about me, I’ll be fine
The last time you yelled at me I swore that I heard you say
I wish I hadn’t met you at all, I started thinking
I’ll sit back and relax and wait for the morning
We’ll wake up, we’ll make up and do this for the last time
We’ll wake up, we’ll make up and do this for the last time
If we break up, we’ll wind up losing both of our minds
So wake up, let’s make up and do this for the last time
When will we make up, will we break up?
Let’s wake up, let’s wake up, let’s wake up
Make up your mind and I’ll make up mine
Don’t worry about me, I’ll be fine
Those words that you said to me, why wasn’t I listening?
I wish I hadn’t met you at all, I started thinking
We’ll wake up, we’ll make up and do this for the last time
We’ll wake up, we’ll make up and do this for the last time
If we break up, we’ll wind up losing both of our minds
So wake up, let’s make up and do this for the last time
Let’s wake up, let’s make up and do this for the last time
If we break up, we’ll wind up losing both of our minds
Let’s wake up, let’s make up

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4 Comments

  1. Anonymous said,

    July 2, 2007 at 8:14 pm

    this person in your life.. sounds like he or she may be a keeper. don’t be afraid, but don’t dive in too deep too soon. just be happy. and within an instant – everything will be worth it one more time.
    charming ravage

  2. Leiselb said,

    July 2, 2007 at 11:23 pm

    beautiful post….just beautiful…

  3. MARFSBABY said,

    July 3, 2007 at 1:12 pm

    Sweetie… that was beautiful. Poetic Kelly, gotta love her.

  4. KellyNerd said,

    July 4, 2007 at 8:39 am

    yes, she’s a keeper, but technically not mine to keep …


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