a little setback

Good morning blogworld.

Thursday night I had a little setback in my health.  Nothing like last year – but enough to frighten me.  I am feeling a little bit ‘off’.  I cannot find another word to describe it.  I can just tell my brain isn’t firing quite right.  When I woke up Friday morning I was still feeling this way and by the time I got to work I was really not myself and knew it – I knew I needed to take action – I worked too hard last year to fight the defection of my brain to let it slip into control again.

I am not about to backslide now when my life is so good.  Im a fighter.

Decision: 

  1. Call in the troops.  Mom, Chico, boss.
  2. Make Dr. appointment (Monday).
  3. Cancel weekend plans that suddenly felt like obligations rather than fun.

I called mom to let her know what is going on.  Tough to do but necessary.  I struggle with worrying her but know that if I decide I need her over the weekend that she will be out to visit in a heartbeat.  That, in itself, is calming.  Yes, I know, I am lucky.  I then made a doctor appointment to check on the med situation and to talk about how I am feeling.  Knowing I get to see Dr. T. on Monday is very reassuring – he is a very important member of ‘team Kelly’.  I then emailed Chico to let him know what is going on and let my wonderful boss know I wasn’t feeling quite right.  I cancelled all my plans for the weekend (other than the painting!).  I feel the need for some ‘me’ time to sort out how I feel about my brain betraying me.  Cancelling the plays was kind of a bummer, but the right thing to do under the circumstances.

Chico is coming over tonight for a visit.  We are going to walk Junior, get some food, and relax in my freshly painted bachelorette pad.  He is going through a life changing time right now and just hanging together will be good for both of us.

So as you can see I am doing everything I am supposed to do.  This means it will work itself out.  I am confident of that.

So, this morning I got up and took Junior for his walk.  We ended up side by side on a local breakfast restaurant patio with the newspaper, sourdough toast and oatmeal!  Somewhat healthier than the usual McDonalds breakfast.  Hey – Im willing to try anything. 

We then went to pick out the paint at the local little neighbourhood hardware store as my painters are coming this afternoon.  I have posted below pictures of the two colours I bought.  Im not sure this accurately reflects the shades – they are more gray than purple and darker. 

Main Paint Colour – Alley  Cat:

Secondary Paint Colour – Flannel Pajamas:

 

I will post a picture when the painters leave today. 

I hope you are all doing well.  Thanks for your ‘ear’.

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addiction

Damn you for this hold you have on me.  I have to have you every morning.

But this morning… This morning I finally convinced myself to break free.

I.ate.Shredded.Wheat.

For breakfast.

Without bacon.

Or ketchup.

I let you go McDonalds!  Take that!

And what do you do ??  You! You! You damn you, you bring out your two for one coupons!  Taunting me.  Enticing me.  But I am stronger than that.  I can beat this.

Right?

=)

queen of clean

I love cleaning products.  All of them. Going to Shoppers Drug Mart and stocking up on everything and going home to clean the entire house – this makes me happy.  I know, weird, right?  I am ok with that.  Neat and tidy, germ free (at least as close as I can be) and everything in its place.  All things necessary in NerdGirl’s world.

So tonight I am at the store picking up a few things, one of them, windex.  The packaging for Method window cleaner caught my eye.  Kind of cute, actually all their products are.  I looked a little closer, it is pretty, cheap and enviro-friendly!  By golly, I think I have found a new line of cleaning products!  It is like falling in love these little finds!  I get home, clear everything off my glass tables and spray … wait a minute, what is that smell????  MINT!  My new window cleaner smells like mint.

I know what you are thinking … this cannot get any better for little old NerdGirl … but I find myself googling Method cleaning products and guess what?  They.have.a.PEOPLEAGAINSTDIRTYBLOG !!!  Hallafreakingluuyah!  I am in love!

OH.my.  Look at this:

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This is a detox kit.  Everything you need to detox your home in one kit.  Online for 28.00!!!  Somebody please please send this to me!

Ok, I have to go lay down or have a cigarette or something.  This was all a little much for NerdGirl!

learned tonight: there are no rules…

… to life.

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… or to handle life’s issues.

One of my blogging friends is in town for a few days.  While out tonight we were talking about our respective ‘ocd’ issues.  We found out we are handling some very similar issues in EXACT opposite ways.

While she is trying to change her ways by letting go a little more and choosing to accept that all things cannot always be in ‘order’ (brave!) … I have been embracing these little quirks for the first time in my life.  Just going with it instead of hiding it and feeling all irritable.  If I feel like straightening the books at Chapters while I pass them, dammit I will.  So there.  If it bothers me that the labels on my files are not in the same font, facing the same way then dammit when I have a second, I will change them.  If Monday mornings it makes me happy to start my week off with a bottle of windex and a roll of paper towel to clean my desk surfaces, then so be it.  If it makes me feel better to get the house all cleaned and in order before I go out the door or relax for the evening then I am going to take the time to do those things.

It was nice to talk to a friend about this.  To recognize there is no right or wrong way to deal with life’s challenges.  That there is no damned rule book – what works for one person may not work for another.

Anyways, because I have written about her fun quirks on here I havent told you which blogging friend she is … if she reads this and comments hopefully she will let you know who she is so you can visit her site too.  She is a beautiful writer.  And person.

Ok, blogging friends, I am off to watch the Samantha Who marathon.  Cute show.  Check it out.

“What if you had the chance to start over, to do it all again? For Samantha Newly (Ms. Applegate), this fantasy becomes a reality after a hit-and-run accident leaves her in an eight-day coma. When she awakens in the hospital, she is surrounded by family and friends. The only problem is that she has no idea who they are – or who she is. Sam quickly discovers she was a horrible person. Vain, selfish and potentially surrounded by far more enemies than friends. She makes a conscious decision to improve herself moving forward. She vows to make better choices, even though her instincts may not always steer her in the right direction …”

I am going to visit all of you on commercial breaks.  I suspect you have all been up to no good!

a subject very close to my heart – and a question for my american readers

I tried to write something new about this subject.

Everything I think comes out as a rant right now, so I will wait.  Rants do not sound intelligent and are rarely listened to anyways.

I did however, write about Pickton in the past.

I thought it appropriate considering the recent ruling to repeat the post now.  Click here.

To my friendly American readers … is this story big down there?

If you get a chance to comment, please let me know if this important story gets coverage in the U.S.  Not only is it a horrific story about a very scary serial killer it has some serious social issues attached.

Thanks!

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